T & L: the break-up #1

durring the week after we met they left us 2 voice messages, 3 emails and about 5 msn message. (to my cell phone and on the computer) we answered a couple of the msn messages with a "hey" or "hows it going" but didnt really get into conversations. in a way i guess i was hoping that they would just go away since i hate breaking up with people. its bad enough breaking up with one person. even worse when breaking up with two people! i get so nervous, like im back in highschool. "what do we say? are they going to hate us? can we still talk to them?" i sat there rocking in my chair with a blank screen in front of my face not knowing what to type. Y joked that the only reason im still with him is because im too chicken to break up with him!

i just didnt want it to end badly. the swinging world isnt that large and i was sure that we would run into them again at some point. better for everyone to be able to get along when that eventually happens. i also have a fear of us getting "black listed" in the swinging community. i can picture us in a year down the road, walking into a club and have everyone talking, pointing and turning away from us as we walk in because we "dumped" every one of them along the line. highly unlikely and overdramatic, i know.

but the point is that they kept messaging us and messaging us and we had to tell them something. our first swinging stalkers!